Take the Good with the Bad

Whew! What a big day.
I woke up this morning....if you can call it waking when you didn't really sleep....maybe I should say I "got out of bed" this morning. Anyway. It was about 6:30 or 7 at the latest. Cupcake decided last night she'd be restless. So not much energy from this gal....
Pumpkin started antibiotics Monday for an ear infection, and this morning it apparently occurred to her stomach that it wasn't in agreement. So we've had a rough day. So on top of trying to contact the Dr. and keep her cleaned up, I had to get ready to go to town looking presentable since I had my own Dr. appt. to go to as well. We had to get pull-ups since we don't keep a big supply of those anymore, thought I had several nights left. (She only wears them to bed) but since it was difficult to make it to the potty we switched to them for the day. Bless her heart. The first time it happened (only a mom would find this funny as she's disgustingly stinking up and splattering up the bathroom) she said, "Mommy, why did my butt do that?" I felt so bad for her but I wanted to laugh at the same time. The joys of motherhood.
We finally got all 3 of us changed and out the door to go chase down some Gatorade, Pull-ups, etc. and intermittently had to run back and forth to the Target bathroom...(in case any of you are wondering, Hubby worked last night and was already going to wake up early to meet me at the Dr. this afternoon, so I couldn't bear to ask him to wake up and help today.) It was a mess. To top it off, they had some kind of outage in our area so all our Comcast products were down, including the phone. Couldn't have gotten Hubby if I did need him. Got to the Dr. early and waited on Hubby and Mom to arrive so we could do the ultrasound. Kind of embarrassing when your 3 yr. old knows the ultrasound tech by name...maybe I've been there a time or two too many recently! So we had a few laughs...confirmed my suspicions for a mid-August due date...and off to sit forever in a crowded waiting room to see the Dr. Those poor guys were slammed in there today. But all was well, and quite pleasant as usual. My Dr. is a pretty funny guy and of course, had a few laughs with us too.
Thankfully, Pumpkin went with Mom back to her office after the ultrasound so she didn't have to sit and wait there forever. She fell asleep when we went back to Target tonight to get her new medicine...slept in the cart like a baby. We had dinner with Mom and Mater and "Kaa-Ka" and are now SO GLAD to be home.
I logged into my email and got some sad news. A friend of mine that I have only known a short time, and she's just moved away, lost her baby about halfway through her pregnancy. This hits home especially hard for me, as I had a very very similar tragedy. Had I not lost my baby (before Cupcake) I would be planning a first birthday for sometime in the next few weeks. It is a difficult thing to lose a child, and in my opinion, even more so when you have felt that life moving inside you. I feel for her because I know that nothing anyone could say really did anything for me. It was something I had to come to grips with myself...obviously with a lot of help from God. I am thankful that I had a good support group, no doubt. But no matter how many people call and say that they have lost a baby or somehow can relate, it doesn't bring yours back. And it doesn't answer your questions...or heal your hurt. So while today I celebrate that beautiful fluttering heartbeat I saw on my little gummy bear guy today, I hurt for her. I hope she can quickly find the peace she needs to push through this and realize that God is in control, even in the times of deepest hurt.
I guess in a lot of ways...there's always some good mixed with bad in everyone's life. I think the older I get, the more I try to look at the balance....two sides to every story...ups and downs....etc. Even going to the Dr. today...as scary as it can be to go in, waiting to see that little flutter on the ultrasound....and hoping it is there, having gone through the loss I suffered, I now go in knowing I have a whole army of people praying, specifically for me. Specifically today, for this appointment. How awesome to have people "in your corner" praying for you all day? That is such an overwhelmingly awesome feeling! I have a friend that has continued to pray and support and uplift me with her scripture verses, and always at the perfect time. I have several people praying...and I can't express to you how much that little bit of thought can carry a person through! So maybe you have a friend that has some anxiety about upcoming events in their life...jot down a verse or two to send on their way with them. You might just make a huge difference in their day!
Well, I'm off to look at expensive baby bedding that I can't afford! I hope everyone has a wonderful rest of the week!