Chaos Update!

It's been a while since I blogged. Things have been C.R.A.Z.Y. Last Tuesday, as in the 9th of December....I discovered a life-changing fact: I'm expecting our third child. Yeah, I know. Kinda what I thought. Cupcake turned 6 months yesterday, on the 19th! Funny how they say "expecting" like you are so knowledgeable about these things. Ha! Me? Not expecting a darn thing! Well, unless you count the...why is this bra suddenly too small? It's new! or...I'm getting fat...apparently I need to cut back since this shirt is suddenly tight and my jeans are difficult to fasten. Yep, pretty sure I'm overlapping the top of these jeans. But I've been watching what I eat....and it's not like I get to sit on the couch and do nothing....well, except the other morning when I was so nauseated for no apparent reason and had to force myself off the couch to fix Pumpkin a Poptart! Or the stuffy nose that could still smell garbage in the mall with not a can in sight! Hmmm....All because my darling husband is scared of a little "procedure". Well, I'm sure not all because of that. I mean, we do have to factor in the logical science part of things...not to mention the God-has-His-hand-in-everything part! So there it is. Top that off with the fact that I sold EVERYTHING baby related (other than what Cupcake still uses) at the church yard sale the Saturday prior. Ouch. Should've listened to Pumpkin when she (once again) announced my pregnancy to me before I knew myself. She did it with Cupcake too. Told me her baby sister was in my belly. Only this time she has insisted for almost 3 weeks that it's a brother. If you tell her it could be a sister, she'll say no she already has a sister. Funny logic. Anyway. I have no official due date yet since I didn't even have a cycle yet (was breastfeeding) so nothing to date the pregnancy. We'll get an ultrasound measurement on January 7th.
And as if that wasn't enough excitement, we are looking for a new vehicle to fit another car seat in, contemplating selling our house (which we were discussing prior to our news) and also awaiting the results of an interview to potentially take Hubby off of shift work. We haven't discussed the interview a whole lot since we both have elderly grandparents that we don't want fretting over the outcome. But still. Lots going on.
Most of my maternity clothes were gone already. Sold them at a local consignment store a few months ago. I still had a few pieces left (maybe 1/4 of what I took in ) that she let me get off the racks. I had to be selective since some wouldn't be seasonally appropriate and also sizes are different since this will be my 4th pregnancy. So after all was said and done of course my good jeans were already sold. Got a few church dresses back and a crappy pair of jeans which I probably should've just let her sell. Oh well. Better than nothing since I have practically nothing at home that fits right now! Got a few tshirts to get me by and mom bought a few shirts that aren't preggo ones but they are more flowy at the bottom so they'll last a while! I don't like being that girl that pees on a stick and decides to buy a wardrobe of maternity clothes, but as I said, I couldn't fasten my jeans! They say you show quicker with every subsequent pregnancy. Guess if you couple that with the fact that I didn't "recover" from the last pregnancy yet, it's pretty rough in the fastening jeans department!
So through all this drama obviously we are thrilled. Overwhelmed, yes but thrilled nonetheless. People keep asking if I'm okay. That's hilarious to me since I don't have much choice. I mean it's a baby not a flood. And I am confident that God knows His plans from memory, so he doesn't make mistakes! We wanted more kids (4 total actually) but decided we couldn't afford it,financially or (for me)emotionally and physically so we'd stop. More meant a bigger house and bigger vehicles, and well, we just couldn't squeeze all that. But we are trusting God since He knows best, and letting everything fall into place. I haven't ever truly planned anything successfully in my life. I mean, other than silly stuff like a dinner, or an event such as a shower or wedding. But big life changing things, I suck at planning that! Seems like I should know by now to stop telling God what I want to do and start asking what He wants. Regardless, He seems to find a way to stop me! Hubby said I can no longer discuss the thought of pharmacy school....twice I've discussed it now and wound up pregnant. Hubby looked up and said "ok...God, we get it!". I'm in a whirlwind, but I have to laugh. I told God if for some reason I wasn't making the right decision by permanently preventing pregnancy, He'd need to intervene before a final step was made. We were making an appt. after the first of the year. Be careful how you make your requests to God!!!! So it's late Saturday night and I haven't gotten the girls' Christmas dressses steamed out yet or Cupcake's shoes located so I need to get busy. I'll leave you with this song that has been playing frequently on a local station. Seems to fit my life right now, and I really like it!

Whatever You're Doing-Sanctus Real

It's time for healing time to move on
It's time to fix what's been broken too long
Time make right what has been wrong
It's time to find my way to where I belong
There's a wave that's crashing over me
All I can do is surrender

(Chorus)
Whatever you're doing inside of me
It feels like chaos somehow there's peace
It's hard to surrender to what I can't see
but I'm giving in to something heavenly

Time for a milestone
Time to begin again
Revaluate who I really am
Am I doing everything to follow your will
or just climbing aimlessly over these hills
So show me what it is you want from me
I give everything I surrender...
To...

(Chorus)
Time to face up
Clean this old house
Time to breathe in and let everything out
That I've wanted to say for so many years
Time to to release all my held back tears

Whatever you're doing inside of me
It feels like chaos but I believe
You're up to something bigger than me
Larger than life something heavenly

Whatever you're doing inside of me
It feels like chaos but now I can see
This something bigger than me
Larger than life something heavenly
Something heavenly

It's time to face up
Clean this old house
Time breathe in and let everything out

You can listen to this on my playlist...just click to select the song. Enjoy!