A girl, indeed!

All together now: Whew!
That's right....we confirmed on Monday that we do in fact, have an "girl Peanut" in our belly. Sure makes things a lot easier...Pumpkin has said for a while now that she was having "anudder baby sister", different from the original proclamation, but fine with us for sure.
I always wanted two kids, a girl and a boy. When I was pregnant (absolutely unexpectedly) with Pumpkin, I just knew she'd be a boy. I wanted a girl so badly so being rather pessimistic, I decided of course it wouldn't be in my favor....while secretly praying I was wrong. I wanted to name her after my "Pappy"-my Mom's dad. His first name is actually Allison but obviously, he goes by his slightly more masculine middle name. But since we never know the health of our aging grandparents....I always hoped he'd be living when I had my first daughter so I could TELL him about naming her after him, as we have quite a special bond. Her middle name didn't become clear until after we determined she was a girl, since Hubby and I argued over it non-stop.
With pregnancy # 2, I was CONFIDENT it was a boy...but the day never came to confirm that. We approached sex determination day with much anticipation but found no heartbeat during the visit, and the way the baby was positioned, it was unable to be determined. Doesn't matter...these things happen in the timing according to God, not according to me...and thankfully I was about a week shy of having to deliver that sweet baby who would of course, no longer be living. So we'll take my word for it and move on....it was a boy.
The funny thing with pregnancy #2 was that I had a dream just prior to discovering that pregnancy in which I saw a beautiful little girl....with a GIGANTIC smile. She favored Pumpkin, but it was not Pumpkin at all. I was puzzled through that pregnancy that I was so confident I had been carrying a boy but had such a vivid dream, as if it were "given" to me for a reason. I'm not one of those crazy dream interpreting types....pretty black-an-white type person when it comes to that stuff. But I couldn't shake that curiosity of why God would have me carrying a boy and constantly thinking about this girl (which by the way we named Cupcake's IRL-in real life- name in my dream...had never heard that name before in my life). And even stranger than that, during my pregnancy #2....we only intended to have 2 children. So that was supposed to be the end.
When we lost that child, it all suddenly made since. God obviously gave me such a lifelike dream to reassure me that I would in fact have another healthy baby. When I became pregnant with Cupcake, we were not supposed to try to conceive for 2 more cycles to give my body time to recover....oops! Pumpkin told me the infant car seat sitting in the spare room was for her baby sister that was in my belly. You can imagine how strange that was to discover I was in fact pregnant weeks later....and I KNEW confidently that it was a girl. And while this may sound even MORE strange.... for those of you who know her....Cupcake is the biggest smiliest baby I've ever seen. Soon after she began smiling, I realized it was her in my dream. Hmmm.
Sometimes we don't give God enough credit. He tries to tell us more than we try to listen I guess. I mean, sometimes I believe He intentionally keeps us "in the dark" about His plans, but obviously there are other times where the answers were in front of us all along.
Anyway...
So with this baby....
Pumpkin's original idea of a boy didn't sit well with me. For some reason, possibly just the fact that the whole idea of being pregnant so soon....it didn't feel real. But for her sake, I hoped she was right. Then when her story changed I noticed a sense of relief. Not because I thought she would ultimately predict...although she has quite a history, but because I didn't want her to be disappointed when the inevitable happened. And I longed for another girl....our little "system" is just so wonderful....
While I always wanted a boy and knew I'd have at least one, now that I have my two girls...I can't imagine it more perfectly. So another girl will be welcomed into our house with open arms. And NO, for those of you who might for some reason STILL be wondering....we will not be "trying" for a boy. We weren't "trying" for a third baby. God just decided to bless us beyond what we asked for I guess! So, we'll take what He give us and be thrilled...but we'll also be making some more permanent decisions in that area very soon....of um....er...the surgical type! hehehe....
We are so thankful to just be carrying another healthy baby. Already the bond is there as I feel her poke and kick me. We have decided on her middle name, too.  Hubby's grandmother (his Mom's mom) passed away many many years ago....and he was quite close to her. Even my own side of the family has very fond memories of this woman and the laughter and giggles she left behind. She went by Ruthie, and had no middle name except her maiden name that she tacked in there after she was married. We thought that since that is from the name "Ruth" which has a biblical affiliation (that's important since our other two have that in some way in their middle names) it qualified , but she didn't go by "Ruth", and we really wanted it to be specific to honor his Granny. So Ruthie it will be. It makes me smile just to say it. And oh, to hear Pumpkin. It somehow winds up being pronounced "Roofthie" which is quite funny,....but to hear her sweeten up the sound of her voice to pronounce it, much like she did for Cupcake...gets me every time. And Hubby's Grandpa was quite proud and somewhat teary-eyed to hear the news as well. So sweet.
Now it is on to finalizing our shopping list. And finishing the nursery decor. More on that some other time...
I'm off to bed for now. And so glad the wondering is over!!!